Date Wear.
I really didn't think a post about exam stress could ignite such a flame war. This blog is meant to promote love and respect for all cultures. Racists can go gas themselves.
And as for the valuable members of society; thank you!
Last night I had a rather curious dream. I dreamt about my first crush, who I crushed on for nearly a whole year. Now I say this is curious because I haven't seen him in over four years, yet in my dream I saw his face so clearly and that flutter in my stomach and the quickening thump of my heart made me feel like I was 15 years old again.
As I was walking to my tutorial today, I thought about this puppy love crush of mine and wondered how different things would have turned out if we had got together. This year could have been our 5th year anniversary... or not.
The thought of, "what could have been...?" is a very bad habit, but sometimes you can't help but to wonder if you made the right decision or if you tried hard enough or not. If dreams do have meanings then I don't think this dream was telling me to get back in contact with this guy or anything like that, but rather to teach myself how to swallow up my pride and persevere in the goals I want to achieve.
Speaking of crushes, I'm sure most girls freak out right before a date because well, there is nothing suitable to wear. EVER! And since I haven't made a proper fashion post in ages, I thought I should put a few outfits together. Photo credits: shopbop.
Picnic Date
Where: Gardens, parks or anywhere where you might go strolling.
What: Picnics, BBQ's, casual lunches and strolls.
Wear: Something light, fun but feminine. Light colored casual shorts with baggy t-shirts tucked in and a cardigan also go well together. Flats are probably the more sensible footwear to wear, but if you want height and nice legs then try wedges to not look overdressed. If I wore this outfit I'd probably tie my hair in a messy bun.
City Date
Where: Err... the city?
What: Shopping, movies...
Wear: Urban sexy. Wear sky high heels to stand out in the crowd so your date won't be checking out other girls while he waits as you scan through the racks of Scanlan & Theodore. If it's cooler you can also try wearing a pair of dark colored skinny leg jeans with an oversized v-neck jumper/cardigan. If I wore this outfit I would leave my hair dead straight or tie it in a high ponytail. I wouldn't wear the sunglasses though. Some people look great in them but I always end up looking like a goldfish.
Dinner Date
Where: Nice restaurant, nice bar or a nice cocktail party.
What: Dining, drinking (moderately), mingling and chatting.
Wear: Go for more pretty and whimsical rather than sexy, especially if it's a work related function. Mini shift dresses are really really popular at the moment but maybe wear them with opaque or patterned stockings since some can be very short. If I wore this outfit hair I would leave my hair with lots of volume and big curls. I think with a mini dress having your hair down (especially if it's long) balances out the length of the dress. Long ponytails can look nice, but I feel that a short ponytail or a bun makes the head look out of proportion and makes the outfit look more formal.
Party Date
Where: Clubs, bars and parties.
What: Dancing, drinking and mingling.
Wear: Jumpsuits are love but they are incredibly hard to pull off though. If you're like me and aren't able to wear jumpsuits, then high waisted tulip skirts with a tight or loose top (tulip skirts generally go with anything) tucked in and patterned stockings also go quite well. Incredibly high and chunky shoes (I'm in love with chunky heels right now *hearts*) are a must. If I was wearing this jumpsuit I'd probably leave my hair dead straight with a quiff, but I think with this outfit anything goes really.Chu ♥ MelLabels: Fashion, Love
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Stressing!
Tuesday
Weather: Sunny (17 degrees Celcius).
Top: Brown silk camisole & black cropped jacket bought in Japan.
Bottom: Snake skin patterned pencil skirt bought in Sydney.
Shoes: Black pumps bought in Sydney.
Accessories: Cartier Love bracelet.
I had to wear a boring outfit yesterday to go to a job interview with Elizabeth Arden. I had to look more confident and mature for my tender 16 years and 48 months so I scoured through my pile of fashion magazines, desperately seeking those that would give me some insight on interview outfits. My inspiration finally came in the form of Vogue China December 2005, in which an OL was wearing a pencil skirt with a jacket top and a waist belt. It looked profession, fun and slightly flirty. I had originally planned to wear a black pencil skirt, but then I wanted to show my youth and vitality so I changed my skirt to add color.
I was a little nervous at first (because I uh, frankly have no formal training with cosmetics and skin care) but the interviewer was a lot of fun to talk to and needless to say the interview was successful (because she liked my outfit? Or maybe because of my beaming personality xD). I'll be going in for a second interview soon. Yay! Hopefully I can land the job, but if not I won't be too disappointed since I'm not really qualified anyway LoL. It'll be fantastic if I can talk my way into a job I'm not qualified for though. We'll see what happens.
Okay, stress stress stress!
- History essay.
- English essay.
- English oral presentation.
- Chinese translation and summary.
- 500 character Chinese essay.
- Chinese exam.
- Japanese role play (that sounds so kinky, if only it was fun like that).
- Japanese listening exam.
- Japanese written exam.
I'm sooooooooooooooooooooo stressed! Somebody massage my shoulders! Somebody stroke my hair and tell me that I am a genius and can conquer anything! Somebody just do my work for me!
This will be all over in two weeks. TWO WEEKS! Then I will be a happy girl prancing around in a garden bed full of sunflowers as tall as I am. I'll be gaily skipping along in a white silk dress with my arms raised up towards the sun feeling it's warmth touching the tip of my nose.
Yes the stress has driven me crazy.
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http://www.hairmoments.com.au/main/vote.aspxChu ♥ MelLabels: Outfits, Rant, Work
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Do you trust yourself?
Saturday
Weather: Sunny (19 degrees Celcius).
Top: White singlet top, white ruffle blouse & Vivienne Westwood cardigan bought in Japan.
Bottom: Polka dot black skirt.
Shoes: White round toe heels bought in Sydney.
Bag: Gucci Jolicoeur.
I went out to dinner with my family and family friends today. I was reading an old issue of Russh magazine and was inspired to dress librarian accompanied with an element of 50s retro.
When I was shopping at Vivienne Westwood in Japan I wanted to buy a red or black round neck cardigan (exactly the same as Nana's) except there were none! Disappointed, I bought the v-neck one instead, but it has proved to be a good investment as I've worn it with everything.
I can't really comment on what I did today since I woke up at 3pm. It wasn't the most productive day but at least I caught up on my sleep (slept for 10 hours!).
This meant that I went out last night yay! Finally got to mingle with humans outside of Second Life. I met up with Cindy and we started out in Bar 333 but the crowd there were a little too old considering I ended up talking about global warming with some people who came down to chat with us. So we quickly moved along to Cargo which was a lot better. I spent a lot of time talking to Cindy, before talking to more interesting younger people.
When Cindy left I went to join some of others friends at World. I only just missed seeing NielMiranda by minutes, as they were there after watching a performance of a girl who works with another friend of mine. You know even if the six degrees of separation isn't true, I think it applies for Sydney at least.
I had a really good night though. I mean I got to end it eating Pizza. What could be better than that? LoL.
1. My newest pair of fake eyelashes were so heavy, my eyes appear half closed in most of my photos.
2. Showing off my Matrix moves.
3. Shh?
4. Rwrrr.
5. ...
I always promise myself that "tomorrow" I will start working on my essay or "tomorrow" I will start my diet, but I never realized how detrimental it was to my psychology. I read recently that when you promise yourself something, then you go on to break that promise, you begin to trust yourself less and less. It's comparable to someone else promising you something. The more times they break their promises the less you trust them. That's why I really have to figure out myself a bit more and start committing to the promises I make. I have always been wary of trusting others but I've always thought that I could myself. Must be more self-disciplined!
Chu ♥ MelLabels: Clubbing, Outfits, Vanity
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Mother knows best.
Tuesday
Weather: Sunny (21 degrees Celcius).
Top: Black tank top bought in Sydney and white cardigan bought in Japan.
Bottom: Grey satin shorts bought in Sydney.
Shoes: Metallic gold and bronze heels bought in Sydney..
Bag: Louis Vuitton Monogram Speedy 35.
Accessories: Cross necklace bought in Japan.
As you can see I haven't been very creative with my outfits recently. There are too many different things to think about other than what to wear *shockhorror*. I tend to just throw on whatever I find with my blurry un-contacted eyes every morning. It's the first time this semester I've been behind in my studies. I've felt the lurk of the procrastination demon behind me for the past week. I want to kill it. I need to kill it. I want to stab it repeatedly with a end of a compass, all the while gorging it's eyes out with corner of my unopened Japanese workbook. Yes, a bit of gratuitous violence will help me get back into rhythm. I do apologize for my boring outfit today though. When holidays hit in a few weeks time I'll dress up as a punk rocker one day to go grocery shopping, then as a Victorian lady the next to play King of Fighters and Time Crisis in an arcade.
Last night I was talking to a friend and he was almost didactic about the content of my last blog entry saying that I sounded like I was, a-word-which-is-synonymous-with-a-sudden-spell-of-feminine-weakness, which is of course not true since us Ninja can show no sign of any weakness. So I just euphonized this word-which-is-synonymous-with-a-sudden-spell-of-feminine-weakness as being lonely. I think he is just intimidated by women who know what they want. Ooh I did not just say that =P I'm joking, I'm joking! If you're reading this, sleep early, drink lots of water and I hope you'll feel better soon. As I'll be expecting to see that school uniform XD jkjk.
Besides all the fun and jokes, I've come to understand why people say "Mother's always know best". With the things that have been happening recently, sometimes I find it really hard to just act as if nothing's wrong, to go on with my daily routine as if my world hasn't been flipped upside down. I think I've come to terms with it today though, all because of some wise words Mother said to me a few months ago.
I was in the car with her talking about how heartbroken one of my friends was because her boyfriend broke up with her and Mother said to me:
"No matter who breaks up with you, no matter how sad you are, just remember you will be okay. With the passage of time your pain will slowly but surely diminish and you will always get over it. Perhaps you may never forget but you will always get over it and be happy again."
Note: I know you probably think I Confucianized all my Mother's words, but she told me this in Chinese, and for people who have studied Chinese before would know that it's a very poetic language. So even though what she said seems perfectly normal in Chinese, once been translated into English it sounds completely wanky.
I thought I should share that little bit of wisdom with everyone. I believe in those words 100% because ultimately how do we ever feel happiness if we have never felt sadness?
Sorry for being so Emo for the past few posts. I will be my normal bubbly self again. Here's a photo to cheer you up from all the angst.
Do we look alike?Labels: Family, Outfits, Teenage Angst
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Maybe next year.
"Have you ever wondered if there was more to life, other than being really, really, ridiculously good looking?" - Zoolander
Ai Tominaga, Bruna Tenório, Lily Donaldson, Du Juan, Alessandra Ambrosio, Angela Lindvall, Doutzen Kroes & Jessica Stam and Karolina Kurkova.
Sometimes I wonder what life is like to be so genetically blessed. Probably not much different, but with the things happening around me now, at least I can sit back, gaze into a mirror and think, "Damn girl. You are HOT!" Haha... yeah I'll just keep dreaming of the day when I can look like Bruna Tenório.
Everything seems to be happening at once lately. So I turn to images of beauty to just grasp onto the little beauty that's left. Perhaps this leaves me with an even more distinct feeling of desolation. I just want things to be better again.
I have the most amazing defense mechanisms. I can't say if it's a good thing or not, but it's my absolute protection, immunizing me from anything out there which can potentially be painful. This makes me slightly detached from my emotions, but that's okay, at least I'm protected.
Eww, eww, emo emo! I'm going to look back at this in a few months time and would probably have to fight the urge to delete it. You know I'm sitting at home on a Saturday not studying, not doing anything really. I was like this last night as well. I don't want to go out but I don't want to stay home either. Okay I lied, I want to go out but I don't have anyone to go out with. I'm so anti-social. LoL. Maybe I should make some party animal friends, just so I can have the choice of whether to go out or not. It's a vicious cycle though, I can't go out by myself but I can't meet new make new party animal friends if I don't go out. Oh dear.
Edit: I just watched the Korean movie 200 Pounds of Beauty. I cried in the end because I'm a sucker for these "sudden epiphanies of what's really important" films. Haha.
Chu ♥ MelLabels: Celebrities, Teenage Angst, Vanity
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Cascading Hair!
Ken's surprise birthday party was on Saturday. Well it wasn't much of a surprise because some dumbfuck forwarded him the email which invited people to his "surprise" party and other people also messaged him to tell him that they couldn't make it. GRRRR!!! What part of "SURPRISE PARTY" don't they get?! I'm so angry at stupid people. I can go on pages and pages about it, but I won't because recently a lot of things have been bugging me more than stupidity. Ooh, I am shrouded with mystery. Doesn't that make you want to get to know me? No? Okay then :(
Three posts ago I asked if anyone noticed anything different about my hair. Most people actually got it right, even though I didn't think it was that noticeable. Yes I got hair extensions. When I was young, in 2nd or 3rd Grade I used play with the hair of my little blonde friends, like all girls did in class. They had the finest and smoothest hair and I would wish that my hair was like theirs; thin, lovely and flowing, unlike my typically thick Asian hair. As I grew older, someone had answered my wish and my hair became more and more fine and smooth. Then I began to hate it in high school because my hair never had enough volume if I didn't blow dry it and I would constantly look longingly at my Asian friends nice, thick and voluminous hair. It's funny how you want something but once you get it, you want the opposite again. So off I went last last Saturday to get extensions so my hair could be thick and plentiful again.
Just look at my cascading hair. It's CASCADING I tell you!
I picwhored so much after I curled it that evening. It's not often you have cascading hair.
I had a crap day at Uni today. I was tired and nothing went right. Things improved after I got home and took a 3 hour nap but I've had better days. I can't wait until Friday when I can just relax. I want to sing... who wants to go K' with me on Friday afternoon?Labels: Clubbing, Parties, Teenage Angst, Vanity
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The Endurance God
Sunday
Weather: Sunny (24 degrees Celcius).
Top: Baggy white tank top bought in Sydney.
Bottom: Black pencil skirt bought in Sydney.
Shoes: Black kitten heels Sydney.
Accessories: Cartier Love bracelet.
I went to The Amazing Human Body Exhibition at Fox Studios with my parents and sister today. My dad made us all go because he said it would be an "educational experience" *rolls eyes*. So I should really gush about how fascinating and complex the human body is blahblah, but truthfully I found it quite disturbing to see real, albeit dead human beings chopped into 1cm slices and displayed on a table. I can deal with blood and gore but a body sliced into pieces is just a little too much for me.
Oh yes, I bought a cut polka dotted skirt today as well.
I guess I'll begin this post with some frivolous photos before moving onto some Emo talk. You have been warned.
Friday was the SUPA Cruise and as I said I was going as the Endurance God a Ninja so here I am:
I know it kind of turned out to be more like a Samurai -_-;;
1. 忍神 - The Endurance God.
2. Amigos.
4. Viet Congs and Jane the Pimpess.
I am so Ninja that Itachi is jealous.
1. Winnie who went as a Gothic Lolita then ended up as a Pirate and me who went as a Ninja who ended up as Sakura (I knew I was a Ninja!).
2. The wig is so hooker.
That MySpace photo loading application is fucking pissing me off. It froze my computer and completely deleted my post! ajf;e48fy0392 fchdsa!!!!!
I walked into my study room today and found scattered pieces of paper and clothing littering the floor. Yellow Post it notes were stuck everywhere on the blank walls, reminding me of the endless amount of tasks I needed to complete. Pens lay on the desk in the most disorderly fashion, dangerously about to roll over the edge. Do excuse me for using this lame metaphor but I realized my life was equally as chaotic. After I got back from Japan life was going so well. Too well in fact, that some higher being decided to cause some drama. Fuck, even my sentences are disjointed now.
Sometimes I find myself shaking involuntary because I'm so terrified of what might happen.
And no, I don't want to talk about it. This is an Emo post and in Emo posts you don't get into specifics, you just comment on how much life sucks.
I was going to write a longer post but I'm not very good at writing about my "emotions". If you haven't realized already I can come off as slightly cold and detached to any sort of emotional feeling that has to do with myself. Thus exposing my inner thoughts so entirely is a little too intimidating for me to do now. Things will get better though. I'm an optimist.Chu ♥ MelLabels: Anime/Manga, Outfits, Parties, Teenage Angst
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Happy Birthday Ken!
I just want to wish Ken a very happy 20th Birthday. Since he's Japanese it means that today (well yesterday technically) was his coming of age day, when he can finally be accepted as an adult. I've been friends with him since we were 14 or 15 years old, and although we disagree and fight all the time (he likes to think that he's always right, but everyone knows that I'm the one who's ALWAYS right!!! =P), I couldn't have asked for a better friendship. I hope he has fantastic 20th year and that he remembers he has a best friend who will always love him for who he is (even if it's not vice versa -_-;;).
Joyce, Alice, Dickson, Shirley, Toho, Tommy, Joe, Anne, Calotay and I went to visit Ken at 12am last night. We stood in front of his house fooling around while waiting for him to get home. When he arrived, we proceeded to throw him into a bin (unfortunately I don't have any photos of it, but I'm sure one of us does).
For Ken, from me.
I'm going to the SUPA (Pharmacy) Cruise tomorrow. I kinda feel like I'm invading the Pharmacy students territory by going, but I have many good friends who do Pharmacy so I suppose I won't be so random going to the cruise. The theme is, "What I want to be when i grow up," so naturally I'm going as a Ninja. I in fact bought a plastic Ninja sword today. I wouldn't be able to bring my real Ninja sword (you know, the one the head of my clan gave me after I graduated from Ninja Academy) as security probably won't let me on the cruise.
I've decided to wear the Yukata I bought in Japan (seen here and here). I'm going to fold it short, so that it's more combat friendly, wear a pair of black boots, my sword tied to my Obi and my Konoha dog tag. I tried on the outfit today and realized I looked kind of like a Shinigami à la Bleach. So I'm like half Naruto Ninja and Bleach Shinigami. Maybe I should just be called a Ningami. That actually literally translates to, "Endurance God". HAHAHA! That would be a good title to have if I were guy.
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= Endurance God?!
Chu ♥ MelLabels: Anime/Manga, Going Out, Photography
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